Thursday, September 24, 2009

The Forgotten Clock ..



This battered clock refuses now to chime
I think it does it solely out of spite
It's tears forever trapped in stolen time
It chimes so loud and forlorn late at night.

Like some forgotten child on the street
That skips around so active after dark
When morning comes she'll slowly drag her feet..
And silently lie weeping in the park.

This battered clock has served its time in silence
In hope that it will fire up a spark
Of silent indignation for the lost ones
To noisily shine through the dooming dark.

I am both clock and child combined
Silent fighter for my freedom
A prisoner of forgotten dreams
In this worn out dusty kingdom.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Your Filter Of Deception.

You seem to assume
To know me
Who I am
What I am
My intentions
My purpose

You cannot know
The impossible life
Behind this that I am
You cannot know
Or begin to know
This that I am

I sought only to learn
A little about you
For when first I saw you
My heart was touched
You were as a sunset
Gleaming on the clouds
With impossible splendor
And I was touched
I heard you speak
Words with depth
Knowledge and understanding
The sunset on which I gazed
Grew even more splendid
I sought only to learn more
About this sunset

Perhaps you assumed
To have known my aim
Thinking it must be
To win your heart
And know your form
Perhaps you believe
That my goal
A simple roll in the sack

No...
In the years
That make my life
I have learned
Bitter lessons
Hard lessons
Many lessons
Lessons of the heart
Tearing and dismal lessons
Of the heart
Lessons of understanding
Of the soul

Amongst my teachings
That which life has taught
This that I am
I have learned
To reach with my heart
When touched
To seek greater understanding
When charmed
Held in the terrific splendor
Of a gleaming sunset
Even at great risk
Risk of rejection
Misunderstanding
Or even discovering
That the sunset
Was but a reflection
Of my standing hope
For a sparkling diamond
In the rough

I know
You will see me
Through the powerful filter
Of your experience
Perhaps this experience
Has never seen
Known
The likes of me
Perhaps you find it difficult
To believe..
My aim..
My goal..
Was simply
To take the time
To learn about you

This has been the way
With me
It seems
I am often
Misunderstood

So........
Think what you will
Of me
Fortress yourself !!
Within your assumptions
Lay guesses and ponderings
About this that I am
Rather than venturing
To learn
And understand.
Solace your heart
With the belief

That I
Fit within your understanding.

That I
Am like any other woman.

Just some gal,
Looking for affection
A piece of ass.

Convince yourself
That I am not genuine
Honest or real
Truly wasn't interested
In learning
About the person
You were
Was just taking the time
To get to know you
Choose to believe..

That I
Perhaps even all humans
Are driven
Solely on instinct
To find a mate
Only interested
In playing
The necessary games
To win your affection

Not all women
Are wired this way
But perhaps
You may never realize this
Safely fortressed
Behind your blinding assumptions
Behind your veil
Your filter
Of deception ...

( Rot on .. .. .. )

Monday, September 14, 2009

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

ill fated ..

A weight upon my shoulder,
A barb within my heart,
When will it be over
The pain felt from the start?

Life is just a hardship,
One topping yet another,
Death approaches us so quick,
Us the world does smother.

Victims are born to the world,
Alone, without a friend,
Villains hold their fingers curled,
Bringing others to an end.

Evil is the new virtue,
What else is there to be said;
What is a person to do,
When all goodness is dead?

Monday, September 7, 2009

No More Confusion ...


so many ...
back stabs but ,
You are stronger then that.
you'll never need him.
look at yourself in the mirror.
is he there?
he will never be.
he causes the pain
you dont deserve or need.
no need for your heart to bleed.
you are no more confused !

tommorrow brings out a New Sun
and a New Day !

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Sometimes LOVE just aint enough !!!

MY FAV SONG of Absolutely all Times ....

Mere lafzon ki pehchan agar
kar leita woh Faraz.....
Tu usey mujh say nahi
khud say mohabat ho jati....

Saturday, September 5, 2009

And she gives in ... to Gravity .. !

Pictures
Memories
Words
No real thoughts

Out in space
Wondering how much of a waste
These years have been
Because in the end she just gave in

She let the gravity of life go
Just did it to let everyone know
She’s tired
The love in her heart expired

Her thoughts no longer
Able to be rewired

Gravity gives way
While others live another day
Just floating off drifting on the lies
On the waves that pull her into deaths tide

Gravity suddenly pulls her down
Then it’s over all the pain drowned…

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Kis Tarha ....

I dont think alotta ppl have actually heard dis song
But what a beautifully sung , heartbreaking song !






-- Mana hum woh nahi ..
jisko chahatay ho tum ..
Geet hum woh nahi ..
jisko gatay ho tum ...

-- Shair hum woh nahi ..
jisko likhtay ho tum ..
Maeenay woh nahi ...
jo samjhtay ho tum ...

-- aik Hum wohi jo ..
likhaiy tum pay ghazal ..
Tumhe unwahn mere
aaj bhi aur kal ...