On Valentine's daY ...

Wandering & Lost ...
in a fog of mixed emotions
A broken smile and a twisted dream
follow me...............

This constant flow of reattached motion
Blinds me and makes me want to see
How dose the darkness blind me so?
How dose my heart not understand ?

The truth is I would fall
and you wouldn’t ever know
Its sad because...
I still can’t comprehend.

The Compassion...
that plays with my feelings so well
The sadness is steering
and the memories haunting

Will I be trapped forever in this fucking hell ?
Its funny how you’re holding my,
knife and are flaunting at me..
What are you thinking?

Do you even understand,
where the source of my pain is from?
It’s funny because..
I never see you blinking !?

When the bloody tears fall from my face ..
and you never come !
You just leave me alone to die
and drown in my sorrow..
I look right threw you ,
as I soak in the desolation.

The taste fills me with fear ,
and I’m scared I won’t see tomorrow..
How much more do I need to show you my desperation..
I’m lost now and will my heart be let to die !

Will my thoughts just be lost in a mindless conversation, forever ?
Is there even hope left for me?
To even try to fix my self somehow?
even if I drown in my frustration?

Forget me not is my last words to you..
I’ll leave my blood hands for someone else to hold..

My back is burned in a shameful tattoo !
I’ll be someone else’s creation for them to mold..

The chains won’t set me free and I’m so confused..
What is it that I do ?
is my life set up for some reason?

I’m so sick of my poor heart being so abused..
There is no one to set me free from this treason?
Maybe I’ll give in to temptation and just forget how I feel
The funny thing is I think my heart gave up long ago..
I have come to the conclusion that my soul will not healed ..............


( another valentine's spent in seclusion & isolation .. I hate to see the world Celebrate Love !!
I hate their happiness ... & feel they Fake it ..... How can i know if its 4 'REAL' since ive never felt it or expereinced it )

makes me Hate u more each day !