Damage U caused...

days
months
years pass..

i still hold u
Near and Dear ..
Not a single day goes by
that doesnt bring back memories.

You on the other hand
Sleep..
peacefully every night in the arms of a beloved.
you spend your days in sunshine.
you laugh with an open spirit
you experience happiness with an open heart.

Those are the blessings i can
no longer experience.
Cuz uve stabbed my heart dead.

Ive suffered long and hard.
your life moto is
"carpe diem"
while i dwell on memories of U.
good and bad.
Haunted.
your ghost sticks to me
day and night.

But now its time to Stop.
Time to stop the insanity,
Time to stop the hurt,
Time to let go Of you
and your twisted memories.

I want to be free
and i want to be happy and healthy.
SO SCREW U BASTARD.

You do not deserve my time
my thoughts
my love.

I will try to forgive u.
as they say
"to forgive is DIVINE"
But Divine is only GOD.
I wont say i will even try to forget you
cuz i know i wont be able to.
You've been mixed in my blood
like a cheap drug ..
No matter how many rehabs i get into..
I will always fall into bad habbit,
thoughts of you
" An Addiction "
I cant completely RID myself off..

But i Promise u this..
I WILL NOT LOVE U ANY LONGER.

GOD is great...
and he does work in mysterious ways..
and i do feel we have some unfinished bussiness ,
left between us.. and YES I STRONGLY believe ..
" What Goes around , comes around "
and All praises be GOD's ...
HE is not unjust.

Justice will prevail..

But I NO LONGER
hold u
Near Or Dear.