Sometimes it Lasts in Love but Sometimes It Hurts Instead ....

mana ke teri deed key qabil,
nahin hoon mein
tu mera shauq dekh,
mera intezar dekh.

Pointless ..

I hate U ...

Time hasnt Healed ....
but it has made the Scars less Visible ....

I dont need U ...
I am a much stronger woman now..
all thanks to you btw,

But ....
In difficult times..

I do Miss u ...
I miss your 'Complete Understanding of my complexed Existance'

Which You ...
ONLY YOU ...
could UNRAVEL ...

Cuz after ALL ...
U were the Lost Piece of ME ..
That Now Someone ELse Possess....

khush raho

Wishful Thinking ......

Faint traces of music drift
To my ears in the lonely night
Words barely audible yet familiar

A little too familiar this time
Taking me back to times and places
I never knew I had left behind.

Intending to turn the radio off
I only manage to increase the volume
Hoping you will somehow hear
And miraculously return
To sing each broken phrase with me
Knowing it's foolish to believe you will
I get lost in the memories each song brings.

"Seven sins of wantonness " and
You were every one of mine
We whispered the words together and
Although Shimmer was always your favorite
You were nothing but Bittersweet to me.

"Just a day, just an ordinary day"
Never came close to being ordinary
As you sang along slightly embarressed
I swore I'd never tell, secretly listening closely
I got lost in every word with you.

"One step closer to recovery"
Was still too many steps away
I'm left thinking of times and fears before
You sing along so passionately
I imagine you must be as well.

"These walls around me are the palest of white"
And that was too much for me to handle
I switched the song, leaving you confused
Never attempting to explain my reasons
You thought you knew, I'm betting you didn't.

"Let's start out, by starting over"
Is much easier said than ever done
You joked about old scars and I didn't laugh
I didn't even hear the rest of the song
For I was trying too hard not to react.

"These wounds won't seem to heal"
But were just as easily disguised
By your smiling face and sparkling eyes
You sang along with a purpose
I pretended I didn't want to know.

And my hands are shaking
And my eyes are tearing up
And my throat is raw with emotion
I swore I'd never show again
And I'm loving every painful second
Of this torture my radio is inflicting.

I'm screaming the words now
Louder than I ever have before
Begging, pleading for you to save me
From every memory I can't forget
And suddenly there isn't any sound
For you are standing in the doorway
Hand silencing our history.

I walk over, barely able to stand
And your fingers stop every word
From ever leaving my wounded lips
Music once again fills the room
As you sing along to me
And I start to forget how badly it hurt
To watch you walk away.

Silently you promise forever
And I reply with fond memory "Only forever?"
Staring with nothing but love into your eyes
I once again begin to whisper each broken phrase
As you continue to softly sing to me
And every memory is rewritten
And every pain is taken away
And every fear is silenced
For you have returned to me.

Trippy Paradise...

(My 1st attempt 2 write prose)



There’s a strange paradise in this reality
Something strange in my impulses and I just want to forget
Where the excelled are accepted and my own
Writing naturally rejected, and there it is now
A strange paradise lurking about in my reality
Influencing my every dream but don’t wake me
No, don’t disturb the improvisation that is my
Skill like a 1,000 year old saw leaving its rusted
Root across 1 million years of putrid literature
No, don’t interrupt the passion despite its mind
Altering scenery, it will be chilled by the storm
That delivers the words to your comfortable lap
So you can collect them together while snapping
This creativity, born of this bizarre, trippy paradise.

gernade ....

I am absolutely in luv wid dis guy ,his voice and dis song <3<3<3




Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

19th january 2009 ....

Us raat bhi barish thi ..
aur aaj raat bhi barish hai ....

GOD Has a Weird Sense of Humour ... !